与仕源在一起的日子:第1001天
I’m hungry now but it’s all my itchy ass problem. Haha. Was supposed to meet Bro for dinner tonight but I told him to get Dad to buy for him instead cuz I’m kinda full when I got home.
And now my stomach’s complaining and rumbling, Bro say want to treat me Mac. Keke. I don’t want to order Mac leh. Hm… Called Mum, see if she can buy any bites for me.
Will be meeting Darling around 10+ 11, he will come over and pick me than we will go back to his place to drop the bags and head for supper. Initially I was still thinking of what shall we have for supper.
Than something flash infront of me.
Frog Leg Porridge!
Hot, steaming and spicy.
Yummy.
Alright! Mum is gonna get satay and chicken wing!!!
I’m glad it’s Friday.
Time is kinda draggy now, I guess it’s expected. Haha.
Plan to extract my wisdom next week but decided not to liao. Initially thought it’s better to do it now before I start my new job. But than fell sick mid this week and don’t feel it’s too nice to be absent from work for 5 days next week.
Starting a new job is just like first day of school. Everything and everyone is totally new to you. Learning new ropes and getting to know your colleagues, adapting to a whole new environment.
I think I’m pretty adaptable. Hope this new working place will be someplace pleasant to work in.
I started my working life when I was 16, immediately after my Os. I didn’t even wait for the results and I got myself a perm job liao. It was through Uncle’s recommendation and at that time I was only drawing S$950 can??? Haha. I can’t believe that I was ever at that phase.
But it was pretty sufficient that time, that was 10 years ago.
It took me lots of time and effort to be where I am today, even though it’s not the most ideal I have in mind, I’m somewhere there.
Life is always contradicting.
I always wanted a normal and simple life. But at the same time, I wish to achieve something for my career.
However I’m too homely to take up regional roles and I have rejected a few too, due to my over-homely personality. Sometimes when things appear right in your face, you will than realize if you can do it or not.
In the past, I thought I will be able to take up regional roles,traveling across the region seems like something I will like doing. It’s only when the hard cold facts hit in right on the face ‘Ok Faith, block xxx , xxx and xxx for a meeting at xxx’ – than I realize I can’t cope with traveling alone.
Yes, I am independent and probably spoilt by the people around me. Especially Darling.
I’m someone who needs taking care of and not someone who can do the taking care.
There are many regrets in my life, things that I wished I’ve done them or not done them. But than, there’s no take 2 for our life. When things happen, it’s happened.You can’t rewind it or amend it, there’s no photoshop to beautify the flaws and mistakes we have done and there’s no click to turn back time or fast forward situations we don’t wish to face.
One sad and yet happy thing (I said life is contradicting, didn’t I?) is that, as we grow older we have more responsibilities. When we were younger, things were much more easier. Everything seems simpler and we have less problems. Reaching my mid 20s, there’s so many new thoughts in my mind that has never ever hit me before.
Moreover now, life is not just about me.
I’m not single or just attached, I have a family of my own now. In the past, I’m part of a family. I have my parents and siblings there for me, I do not have to be responsible to anyone, except for myself. I was the supporting role in my family together with Sis and Bro. Dad and Mum were the lead Actor and Actress.
But come Sep, I will be the leading actress for the first time in my life and this leading actress role will be with me for the rest of my life. I have to make sure I fulfill my role as a leading actress well in order for the supporting roles to have a smoother path.
Alot of times, I’m still a kid myself.
Even now, though I might know that I have to be more responsible I’m still a kid half the time. I always need Darling there to bring me back on the track. I think I’m a Wanderer. Haha. Cuz I tend to stray and wander to the Never Never Land and lost myself.
Many years back, someone told me I seem to live in a fantasyland like a princess. My life is full of fantasies, probably unrealistic ones but still.
But I can’t be living in fantasy anymore (perhaps once in blue moon, hehe). Like what Darling say before, I’m no longer the princess. I’m the Queen now and Cookie is our Princess. I have to give up the princess title to her. Haha.
It’s been awhile since I last wrote so much.
Just some of my thoughts =)
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