Our Thoughts, Our Daily Life
From 2006 – 2009
Do you see much changes in me for the 2 years plus 3 years?
Reading back my past entries made me realize I really did change quite abit. In terms of appearance (perhaps not so much on this) and also the things I write about and the way I write. It’s just different.
Sometimes reading my past entries made me laugh. Haha.
But I’m glad I have this cyberspace of mine to lock down on my memories
=D
与仕源在一起的日子：第1013天
The weather is super duper good today!!! How I wish it’s a weekend =(
Darling woke me up when he’s ready but I really didn’t want to get up. Haha. I still did eventually lah.
Went the 400+ market for dinner yesterday. I don’t have much appetite for lunch lately but had pretty good appetite for dinner. Perhaps it’s got to do with moods.
I ordered WanTon mee but I swapped with Bro. Hehe. Thanks hor.
Than ordered satays and desserts. Wasn’t full after all that (but I didn’t finished my mee lah). We ordered 10 more sticks of satay but I still wasn’t very satisfied.
Anyway Mum got durians! Feeling good after that. =)
Bathed Cookie when we got home and brushed her teeth as well.
Watched 第 一 诫 (One of the movies we rented on Saturday)
Starring Shawn Yue, Ekin and Fiona Xie.
Overall it’s not too bad.
It’s about Shawn (Policeman) who stumbled upon a serial killer while on duty. When he was almost being killed, he was saved by a ghost who’s actually killed by the serial killer.
He was given 5 shots and when he recovered he gave a report on what happened and refused to change his testimony.
His superior than transferred him to the 杂 务 处.It appears to be some cannot make it department but it’s actually a department that tackles with the ghosts, spirits and mysterious happenings.
And the ghost they were pursuing is actually the serial killer that Shawn Yue killed and he’s back for revenge.
In the end, Ekin died, Fiona died.
And the ghost possessed Shawn Yue.
The way the ghost goes from one body to another is alittle funny though. It’s like a ‘last touch’ thingy. Touched by the ghost? The ghost will than possess you.
Haha.
Alrights, my explaination is rather poor so you might not want to watch it anymore. Haha.
It’s not that bad actually. The movie is quite alright, you can rent the DVD but don’t buy it.
Rare nights like yesterday, Darling did not do any of his work. Instead he relaxed on the bed playing PSP and we watched show together. I really hope he can take a short break once in awhile and not overwork himself.
He’s very important in our life, to me and Cookie. We need him strong and healthy.
Our e-ticket to Vietnam – Ho Chi Minh!
Total 9 pax! Haha. I’m really looking forward to it, it’s been so long since I last travel with my family. There’s actually tons to look forward to this year. Come September there’s 2 good news followed by December’s trip =D
67 more days to our ROM. That’s like so soon can??! And I can feel the stress already! There’s like so many things not done!
Booked our Harry Potter tickets too!
Friday at 10.30pm! Hehe.
I thought there will be a $2 off if I purchase over the counter with my DBS Live Fresh, I saw it someone on the net. BUT there wasn’t any leh. When I checked again, it’s only for Fridays (you have to purchase it on Friday itself) and it’s only for the 1st 100 purchase.
!@#$%
I wish for this week (weekdays) to end soon!!!
与仕源在一起的日子：第1011天
Friday night Darling drove me to Ah May’s place at Tampines to get my LC bags. Hehe. Saw her 2 little princess. Didn’t stay for long as it was kinda late already. We head back to AMK to drop the bags and get my clothes. Gave Mum her red long handle LP. I got the small for her, medium is too big liao. She likes it. =)
I got the Bilberry for myself. =D Liking it too.
Went back Hougang and I watched Hostel again. Super duper ‘bo liao’ hor. I watched it like zillion times liaos, but I’m the kind that can watch a movie over and over again, if I like it. Darling went out to meet Kurt mah. Haha. So I ‘nuai’ at home till he’s back before we two fall asleep. I’m kinda tired on Friday.
Saturday morning we head to ICA to collect our passports. There wasn’t any queue, got it in 5 minutes. I’m still surprised that my photo got approved. It was alittle out of shape when I adjust the size via photoshop. Haha. We were laughing at it and Darling told me it won’t be approve one loh, 100% guaranteed. But it went through!
New passports only last for 5 years. !@#$%^.
Before heading out
Raymond than informed us that our car is ready for collection. We took our lunch and took a cab down to Macpherson.
Signed some more documents and talk to Raymond about the deposit he’s supposed to refund us. He’s quite blur one leh, did all the calculations wrong and he don’t even know what are the figures he wrote for.
We already pay a deposit of 1K and he’s supposed to return us some amount from that. Initially he told us he will only return us S$100+, but after our calculations he’s supposed to return us S$800+ loh!!!
Carebears!
We went Serangoon to get some stuffs afterwhich than head back to AMK to stay with Cookie for awhile.
Rented 2 DVDS too =) but we didn’t have time to watch.
Met ZG and Ashley for steamboat at night. I didn’t eat alot probably because that ‘out of breathe’ feeling is back again. It rained heavily after dinner but finally stopped to a drizzle. We met up Ah Beng & GF for movie – Ice Age 3 – Dawn of the Dinosaurs.
It was the movie I wanted to watch initially. Haha.
It’s really funny.
A good movie for both adults and kids. And how nice to see scary dinosaurs looking so cute and innocent. Head for home after the movie, watched like 1/4 of one of the movie we rented before we surrender.
Bought 2 donuts from Donut Empire. I love the donuts from Donut Empire, so fresh and so damn nice can. One of the 2 that I bought, D24 Durian Donut. Hey, it’s nice!
I woke up pretty early the next day, around 8 plus. Than again at 10 plus. Probably because I wanted to pee. Keke. Went back to sleep again and we both woke up around 1plus.
Had lunch and we planned to bring Cookie out for a walk but someone came to repair the pipes at Darling’s place and we can’t shower.
We only managed to leave the house around 4pm.
Bought Cookie to get shoes, we don’t allow her to walk without shoes outdoors. It’s very very dirty. Went to many many shops before we found one. She’s really tiny, her hands and legs are so small that most of the shoes are too big for her. They keep falling off when she’s dashing and thus explaining her with no shoes. They fall off and we failed to notice.
She’s super excited to be out but yet afraid at the same time.
Waiting while Darling’s vacuuming the car
Went back Hougang for dinner after we bought Cookie home.
@ Hougang
After dinner we went to pick Mum from work than meet Kurt. Haha. He did some ‘inspection’ of our car, so far things are okay but I think we still have to drive it for awhile before we will know if it’s really working well.
We bought Cookie along too. She’s super happy loh, ‘gai gai’ twice a day but super tiring for her too. Concuss the minute she got home.
Kurt commented or rather complimented that our baby is very ‘guai’, very quiet and gentle.
Ahem… Cookie always give people the wrong impression. I told him to come my house when he’s free and he will see her true colors. Haha.
He’s not the first one to say that and he won’t be the last. I guess only we will know the real her.
Told Darling we have another daughter now, which is the car.
Darling say, she’s adopted one not our real daughter cuz she’s 2nd hand. Haha.
We be watching Harry Potter this Friday! I’m going to get the tickets tonight, just checked online and quite alot of the seats were taken up already. And I have to purchase it over the counter in order to get the S$2 off.
And Da Vinci this Saturday =)
We booked our tickets to HCMC on Sunday. Total of 9 tickets! We paid at 7-11 instead of online because of the extra S$58 administrative fee.
Lo0oooking forward to September than December. Hehe.
I booked my BT for 29th July!
与仕源在一起的日子：第1008天
2 photos uploaded after the lack of photos for the past few entries!
Pretty back-dated, these were taken last week before we went out. I don’t know why is he not looking at the camera, despite me pointing it out to him. Haha.
And a photo of the phone charm he bought for me.
This is not from his phone. I’ve decided to not extract the photo from his phone liaos. Cuz I’m always so lazy to blog when he’s around. Haha. I don’t like people to read my blog while I’m writing, I feel weird all over. I love to write when I’m all alone.
So this is the one he got for me.必 胜 !
We are seriously procrastinators.
Aunty asked me last weekend if I can develop Darling’s graduation photos. I told her can, it’s actually with Darling liao. The soft copies I mean. Remember the queue numbers for our photos, his graduation is nowhere till top 10 yet! But think we will have to develop that first, and this weekend is like.. tomorrow? We haven’t develop it yet.
Gosh. Haha.
Darling will be / might be flying to Guangzhou next week. I want to go! =(
He’s been flying around without me! How can he do that!!! But it’s for work lah, and I gotta work in Singapore too. Too bad.
Been feeling really tired lately, dragging my feet every morning. I really don’t know why. Is it because I’m already leaving the current company?
Not feeling too well lately too. I hate my tummy sometimes, give me all sorts of problems. Yesterday I had this sharp pain on the left lower side of my tummy and I don’t know why is that so.
It feels like gastric but I ate breakfast and lunch. Than I can’t breathe evenly.
Darling’s tired too. Late hours for him almost every night. He will always stay up to finish his work till late in the night and I think that’s bad for his health. We all think so but yet he always have tons of projects and reports to do. He’s on leave today and I told him not to do any of his work. He should just rest and relax. But well, he will come and pick me later. Haha.
We slept pretty early last night. Me even earlier. Than somewhere in the night, Darling’s phone rang. And it’s those super loud kind. After awhile the ringing stopped and a message came in.
We thought it was already like 2 plus 3 midnight, and who the hell is calling. But when I checked the time, it’s only 12.30am. Haha.
Didn’t sleep well last night though. =(
We will be collecting our passports tomorrow. Our shoot is being postponed to next next weekend because I haven’t been feeling too well. On and off.
And I have to collect the passport personally. =( Why can’t I just authorize someone to do it for me?
Cookie’s so naughty lately we don’t know what to do with her. Haha.
Yesterday she led me to the door, either she wants to go out or she knows Darling is reaching home cuz Darling was at the door around 1 minute after led me there.
We will bring her go swimming at Petgamart soon. She caught flu and fever the first time we bought her there, so Darling’s kinda wary about swimming again. But I think as long as we keep her dry and her fur is short now, it should be fine =)
No air-con for her on our way home.
Meiling’s Dad passed away.
She told me her Dad was diagnosed with cancer few weeks back and now he’s passed on.
Feel so sad and sorry for her.
Our condolences to her and her family.
Mum say we can’t attend the funeral because our ROM is around the corner.
Be collecting the bags tonight =)
10/07/09: Finished my 2nd subway!!!
与仕源在一起的日子：第1007天
I don’t understand why some people just can’t read or have some basic sense?
Every morning or and evenings I will take this lift from the mrt which will link me to the street floor near my office and vice versa. The route is shorter, I don’t have to walk that much but I do have to squeeze myself inside the lift sometimes. It’s always over-crowded.
Sometimes the lift is overloaded or people just squeeze themselves in by force and trigger the sensor, thus the lift doors can’t be closed.
BUT yet nobody bothers to move. I don’t understand, the intervals of the lift are really short, if you would be so kind as to step out and wait for the next one you will be able to reach your destination faster. But yet, people choose to ignore the warning beeps, wishing for it to go away.
This morning, the same thing happened.
The lift was already packed till there’s no space for another person but some of them still squeeze themselves in. Than when the lift is overloaded, nobody wants to move loh!!! The ones who came in last and still struggling by the door should step out right?!!!!!!! And they pretend they don’t know.
Damn.
Usually I’m not the kind that will voice out, I will just keep quiet and let someone else do the job. But I’m really !@#$%^ today, so I said to no one in particular that the lift is overloaded.
And yet, the ones standing near the door still look left, right and up but refused to go out. Until some other passengers started ranting at them than one lady stepped out followed by another because the lift was still overloaded.
And sad thing is, the ones who stepped out aren’t the ones standing near the door. That very one lady who should be the one stepping out just pretend she didn’t hear anything.
Super cannot make it.
The time wasted in waiting for someone to step out is enough for the lift to go up and come down again!
I always take train at Marina Bay cuz I wanna sit. Hehe. When I see pregnant ladies boarding the train I will still give up my seat. However, there was once where I offer to give up my seat to a non-pregnant lady who looks pregnant. And I felt so ‘pai seh’ and so sorry.
From than onwards, I’m very careful whenever I wanna offer my seat to anyone.
We confirmed on our car liao. It’s a red chevy aveo – 2006 car. We did our maths and decided it’s quite a worth buy. Getting a pretty short loan too, 10 years is kinda long and it’s really gonna take us donkey years to pay loh, not forgetting the interest. And so, we took a 5 .5 years instead. By the time we complete the loan, we are done with the car too. Hehe.
Hope there will be no issues with the car. Keke.
With so many things up and coming, we really have to be careful with our spendings.
Our ROM, our Customary, our Home and now our Car. And not forgetting our Children. Keke. And maintaining Cookie is not cheap either!
Every single of them cost quite a bomb. Haha.
Stop asking me when am I going to take my driving license. Haha. I’ve been procrastinating this for a very very long time. I really don’t have the motivation to go for it and I know I’ve been finding all sorts of excuses for myself. Ya right. I know.
But I’m seriously thinking about it now because I can drive the car when Darling’s not in town mah. BUT BUT BUT.
There’s really many things on my plate now! With the new job, our ROM coming etc…
Probably will wait till I’ve settle down at my new job first and finish our ROM than will go for it.
And than, there’s the issue of taking leave for the test.
New job, not too nice to take leave hor? Plus I will be taking at least 3 days in Sep and 3 days in Dec liao.
Hm…
OHOH!
I must write this down!
I finished my 1st subway yesterday!!! The VERY FIRST TIME can!
I’M SO SO SO SO LAZY!!!
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与仕源在一起的日子：第1005天
Finished watching 学警狙击!
I like the show! Especially Laughing. It’s kinda sad that he died in the end. But I heard there’s actually a 2nd version whereby he came back alive. Haha.
梁笑棠 (谢天华饰)
After many years of being supporting roles, he rise to fame based on this role – Laughing.
Undercover for a whole 9 years, doing things he don’t wish to do but he have to do for the greater good. It’s really not easy. He can’t have any true friends neither can he get involve in any relationships.
And when he finally get the chance to reinstate his real identity, he chose to go back as an undercover again to help with the capture of 江世孝.
But his identity was disclosed and he was killed. And he shouldn’t die!! All thanks to 李柏翘. But can’t blame him too, to him he’s just another secret society character who deserves to die and at that moment he thought he’s gonna kill 钟立文. And the saddest part is, they did not return his true identity to him after he’s dead. And he doesn’t even have a proper burial.
Sobs.
I’m so sad.
姓名 : 江世孝 (苗侨伟饰)
He’s considered the bad guy in the show, together with the others. Many would say he’s very charming, and getting more charming as he aged. Somehow I find he’s alright lah, never a big fan of him though. And his facial expressions in the show is kinda perverted sometimes leh. Haha.
程若芯 (周海媚饰)
The wife of the Big Boss. We feel she’s not that pretty in this show though, like kinda old and haggard liaos. Sad that she died under the hands of the guy she loved.
李柏翘 (陈键锋饰)
He’s the very upright policeman in the show. But we don’t really like him and his wife in the show. Haha. Like abit overly ’straight’ liao. Cannot stand them at times.
花若葆 (梁嘉琪饰)
Not much comments on her lah. Pai Seh. Cuz I don’t really like her. Initially she was kinda weak to be in the police force but admire her for her determination and willingess to take critics.
钟立文 (吴卓羲饰)
I like him leh! Haha.
Darling and I prefer him and 江悠悠 rather than the other couple. He’s so good-looking in this show can?!!! The very rugged and alittle untidy kind, charming leh. Being an undercover is really no mean feat, you have to lie to everyone including your loved ones. Alot of misunderstandings and yet you can’t clarify them.
江悠悠 (江若琳饰)
Chilli Padi. Sugar and Spice.
Tough girl due to her sad childhood and growing up alone. But she’s kinda sweet though at times she doesn’t look that pretty. Perhaps it’s an angle thingy. Haha. She bore some resemblance to Charlene Choi (Twins) though.
But better looking than her. Haha.
黑 色 会 aren’t definitely bad sometimes.
Of course it’s bad to be in a secret society but not all involved in SS are badies. There are good ones too, depends on what they peddle in. There can be those 知 识 份 子 who are 人 渣 too. And sometimes these people are the real big bad wolves.
Be going for a photoshoot this Saturday, haven’t decide on what to wear!!!
Asked May to help me buy LC bags from France, hope the colors I want are still available as there will be a sale going on on Thurs.
Kinda fickle-minded on the colors and choices, haha. Think she want to kill me liao.
Looking forward to Friday and for other things to come soon!!!
Darling might be traveling soon, this time round there might be a 2 weeks’ to Armenia. Haiz. Gonna miss him.
I would like for him to be around with me during my transition period but if he really has to travel, he has too. I will be fine!! Tell myself that 1 million times and it will come true. Haha.
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Probably the weather is bad, probably it’s mood swings and maybe it’s just me.
Had a quarrel with Sis earlier on. I have to admit, I am pretty short-tempered but I was really alittle piss. What happened was this.
I wanted to get a LC bag for Mum so I asked Sis if she wants to share since May is going Paris, it’s cheaper than Singapore mah. Than she say ok, so it’s a half half thing. And I confirmed liao so today I let her know the price cuz I happened to talk to May over FB and she was telling me how much the bag cost. Than Sis say if she want to buy her own present can or not.
And I’m quite irritated lah.
Cuz this is not the first time, whether she mean it or not I remember very clearly there were a few times when we were talking about sharing of present she also ask me the same question. Well, what do you expect me to say? If you want to get something else for her, I can say no meh?
But the least is tell me in the beginning right.
So we had an argument and all kinds of things came out again. As usual, she will say things like I’m ‘gao gai zai shang’ and I’m always right and stuffs like that.
Aiyo.
Nobody ever think this way loh, we are all equals loh. Please. What ‘gao gao zai shang’, what rubbish?
I don’t like to hear all these. It’s non-relevant and simply ‘bo liao’ right.
Than she shared with me ever since the incident with Bro, she’s very upset and she will always think before saying. Cuz she’s worried that she will make me or Bro angry. Bro was indeed in the wrong by saying all those things, especially infront of Dong Dong. It’s doubly wrong. No matter how, she’s still his elder sister and it’s not like she commit any hedious crime.
As for me, I just feel very neutral. No hard feelings, no bad feelings. Just like the usual.
I love her because she’s my sister, no matters what happen we are still bonded by blood and that bond is greater than anything.
But frankly speaking like I told her, she has indeed done some things which makes her younger siblings abit hard to recognize her as an elder sister or to respect her.
For one to gain respect, we have to earn it. I can’t say exactly how or what do you have to do to earn that respect, but one should know what to do.
Like what she say, we should not think of the/her past liao, it’s already over. Look forward liao mah, the present.
And the plans she have, I told her because she have said the similar things for many times and nothing is done, so can’t blame us for not believing.
I think it’s time for action and no more lips service. Just do it, get it done and we will all know she’s really done it.
Moreover, whatever she’s doing is for her own good not for anyone else.
But if you fail to do and keep mentioning than…
No hard feelings though.
We will be fine. =)
At the end of the day, I still ove her and Bro.
And I believe they love me too.
与仕源在一起的日子：第1004天
Took half day to run some errands. I have a new passport =)
Hehe.
Updates on my new job, I have signed the appointment letter and went for the health check and will commence work on the 3rd August. =)
Did blood test – the doctor say my veins are too small. Haha. Not easy to get blood. And I’m really afraid of needles loh, especially those jabs related one. It’s so damn long can.
And urine test as well, and I hate urine test.
Weekend was pretty tiring for us, Saturday was a day out since afternoon till night. We went car-shopping. Haha. Wore my new shoes which was supposed to be more comfy but I ended up having blister instead.
If everything goes well, Darling will drive me to work everyday. Keke.
Let’s see how things goes bah.
With the marriage and flat coming along, our burden will get heavier as days goes by. Lots of planning and savings to do. And not forgetting – earning!
Jia You!
Evening we went to Beaulieu House, there was a big crowd there. 2 events happening at the same time, so the whole area was packed. We seated ourselves at one corner and pin down on most of the details with Daniel.
At least, we had a fruitful discussion.
More of less settled. We won’t have to go down anymore till the day of the event itself. But we will be going down again next Saturday because of photographer – Daniel (also) wants to do some recee on the location.
Another 76 days to our ROM. That’s really fast!!!
I remembered that we did our enquiry last year in Sep and whoosh. It’s already coming to a year. Time really flies without us knowing.
We are both excited!!!
Let’s hope the actual day wil be as per what we have in mind =)
I slept pretty early for all the 3 nights, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Feeling really tired and nowadays there’s no Saturday Night movies on Channel 8 liao.
Darling came back on Friday night and he bought me a new mouse.
Thanks Darling!!!
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There are some people in this world that will always say negative things about you, the things you have, the places you go and the things you do.
Are they being ‘hao lian’ or they are just being straight and they just wanna voice out their thoughts?
e.g. if you are taking a budget airline – huh? budget good meh? i only fly by SQ
e.g. if you are going to a more backward country – huh? why want to go there? i rather go Paris that kind. European countries better.
e.g. if you are staying at a budget hotel – yee. sorry I always stay at 5* or at least 4*.
A friend shared the above with me. And I feel, if the person commenting is not happy (in the first place, it doesn’t involve him/her) than buzz off loh. If you don’t like it, that’s your problem. Why should you burst other people’s bubble? Doing the above doesn’t mean they are poor but it’s just individual preference. If you have your preference, we respect you. But keep your high-minded opinions to yourself.
And frankly, usually these people who give such comments are those 打 肿 脸 皮 充胖 子 kind.
The rich usually won’t show their wealth, only the poor who wants to be rich will.
I’m kinda sleepy.
Zzz.
与仕源在一起的日子：第1001天
I’m hungry now but it’s all my itchy ass problem. Haha. Was supposed to meet Bro for dinner tonight but I told him to get Dad to buy for him instead cuz I’m kinda full when I got home.
And now my stomach’s complaining and rumbling, Bro say want to treat me Mac. Keke. I don’t want to order Mac leh. Hm… Called Mum, see if she can buy any bites for me.
Will be meeting Darling around 10+ 11, he will come over and pick me than we will go back to his place to drop the bags and head for supper. Initially I was still thinking of what shall we have for supper.
Than something flash infront of me.
Frog Leg Porridge!
Hot, steaming and spicy.
Yummy.
Alright! Mum is gonna get satay and chicken wing!!!
I’m glad it’s Friday.
Time is kinda draggy now, I guess it’s expected. Haha.
Plan to extract my wisdom next week but decided not to liao. Initially thought it’s better to do it now before I start my new job. But than fell sick mid this week and don’t feel it’s too nice to be absent from work for 5 days next week.
Starting a new job is just like first day of school. Everything and everyone is totally new to you. Learning new ropes and getting to know your colleagues, adapting to a whole new environment.
I think I’m pretty adaptable. Hope this new working place will be someplace pleasant to work in.
I started my working life when I was 16, immediately after my Os. I didn’t even wait for the results and I got myself a perm job liao. It was through Uncle’s recommendation and at that time I was only drawing S$950 can??? Haha. I can’t believe that I was ever at that phase.
But it was pretty sufficient that time, that was 10 years ago.
It took me lots of time and effort to be where I am today, even though it’s not the most ideal I have in mind, I’m somewhere there.
Life is always contradicting.
I always wanted a normal and simple life. But at the same time, I wish to achieve something for my career.
However I’m too homely to take up regional roles and I have rejected a few too, due to my over-homely personality. Sometimes when things appear right in your face, you will than realize if you can do it or not.
In the past, I thought I will be able to take up regional roles,traveling across the region seems like something I will like doing. It’s only when the hard cold facts hit in right on the face ‘Ok Faith, block xxx , xxx and xxx for a meeting at xxx’ – than I realize I can’t cope with traveling alone.
Yes, I am independent and probably spoilt by the people around me. Especially Darling.
I’m someone who needs taking care of and not someone who can do the taking care.
There are many regrets in my life, things that I wished I’ve done them or not done them. But than, there’s no take 2 for our life. When things happen, it’s happened.You can’t rewind it or amend it, there’s no photoshop to beautify the flaws and mistakes we have done and there’s no click to turn back time or fast forward situations we don’t wish to face.
One sad and yet happy thing (I said life is contradicting, didn’t I?) is that, as we grow older we have more responsibilities. When we were younger, things were much more easier. Everything seems simpler and we have less problems. Reaching my mid 20s, there’s so many new thoughts in my mind that has never ever hit me before.
Moreover now, life is not just about me.
I’m not single or just attached, I have a family of my own now. In the past, I’m part of a family. I have my parents and siblings there for me, I do not have to be responsible to anyone, except for myself. I was the supporting role in my family together with Sis and Bro. Dad and Mum were the lead Actor and Actress.
But come Sep, I will be the leading actress for the first time in my life and this leading actress role will be with me for the rest of my life. I have to make sure I fulfill my role as a leading actress well in order for the supporting roles to have a smoother path.
Alot of times, I’m still a kid myself.
Even now, though I might know that I have to be more responsible I’m still a kid half the time. I always need Darling there to bring me back on the track. I think I’m a Wanderer. Haha. Cuz I tend to stray and wander to the Never Never Land and lost myself.
Many years back, someone told me I seem to live in a fantasyland like a princess. My life is full of fantasies, probably unrealistic ones but still.
But I can’t be living in fantasy anymore (perhaps once in blue moon, hehe). Like what Darling say before, I’m no longer the princess. I’m the Queen now and Cookie is our Princess. I have to give up the princess title to her. Haha.
It’s been awhile since I last wrote so much.
Just some of my thoughts =)
Book Review: The Host
I finished with The Host last weekend. Frankly I didn’t quite like the book initially because the plot is too absuard and too illogical for me to accept.
It’s about aliens who conquered Earth. The souls of these aliens are being inserted into human hosts, taking over their bodies and minds, leading their life.
They have Seekers, who hunt down the humans and Healers who are like Doctors but they work miracles.
To the aliens, Humans on Earth are abussive and cruel, we resort to killings and stealings. However by them taking over our minds and bodies by force, isn’t that barbaric? No?
The story revolves around this soul – Wanderer who took over Melanie’s body. However Melanie is too strong to be casted away like the other humans. They shared the body and they communicated with each other. From hating each other, they became the best of friends, as close as twin sisters.
I just find it really weird because Wanderer is a real nice and kind soul. She’s timid and she’s very much like a human. And can I ever forgive an alien who took over my body by force, even if she didn’t choose for that to happen?
However after reading on, I kinda like it as the story progress.
It’s full of love and human ties and relationships. How people gradually change to accept Wanderer and how she and Melanie became the best of friends.
Wanderer wanted to self sacrifice to save the other souls and to allow Melanie have her body back. But in the end she managed to live on in another Host, different appearance but the same her.
Melanie came back as herself and happy ending for her and Jared.
Wanderer did feel for Jared initially when she was in Melanie’s body. Usually when a soul is in a host, he/she will absorb the host’s feelings, emotions and thoughts too.
And she love Jared too but ultimately Ian is the one Wanderer love and they ended up together too.
It was a Happy Ending – BUT Aliens were still on Earth 
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